It’s been about two years since I posted my last blog post. A lot has happened during that time. I am now a qualified Social Worker after graduating from an MA in Social Work. I put blood, sweat and tears in to that degree and I nearly crumbled several times, but I got there and I am incredibly proud to say that.
My son, Charlie, is now 3 and a half years old. How do I have a nearly 4 year old?!?! I still feel 21 years old in my head! He is going to be starting school next year. Now it is nearer to him turning 4 I am actually relieved that he will get another year at preschool and will be starting school at 5 years old because I just do not want to lose my baby yet. I personally think children start school too young in the UK anyway.
Without a doubt, the biggest change in the last two years has been my own personal growth and development. I am a completely different person to who I was two years ago. I have the same personality and the same face, albeit a little older looking, but I have grown so much as a person. I am able to overcome my mental health issues on my own a lot of the time. I look after myself more and I am kind to myself when I am having a bad day or week. I am utilising things like yoga and meditation to stay grounded and centred. I have also grown in confidence tremendously. This is partly down to a new business venture that I undertook a month ago, which has helped me to focus on the positives and enabled me to be a part of a supportive community in which people empower others and want to see others succeed. I have never experienced that before. A lot of my life I have felt that I am in competition with people and felt judged if I have not looked or acted a certain way, but I now feel like I have found my own identity and feel comfortable with who I am as a person.
Of course, I cannot bypass mentioning the lockdown that is occurring at the moment. Four weeks ago when I was hearing the situation on the news, I was filled with thoughts of dread, anxiety and depression. However, I soon realised that I needed to pick myself up and carry on as best I could for my own sake and my son’s sake. I undoubtedly miss my family and friends, like everyone else does, and have days where I am climbing the walls wanting some freedom, but I realise that I am extremely lucky. I remind myself each day of what I have to be grateful for.. my loved ones, our health, a roof over my head, support of others, etc.
In the last month I have realised the importance of my own health and happiness, as well as that of my loved ones. Of course I have bad days and weeks where I feel down or unmotivated, but for the most part I am able to pick myself back up and make positive changes in my life to improve and maintain my mental health. At the moment I am following a healthy living programme with my new business and I am feeling so much better in myself. I have lost weight, I have more energy, better skin and have increased in confidence. Most of all leading a healthier lifestyle has hugely improved my mental health, which has meant I feel more able to care for my son and cope with stressors in life.
I will endeavour to share all of the ups and downs of my health journey and time within isolation. I want to keep this page realistic and intend to blog about the good, the bad and the ugly. Stay tuned!